tahun baru. penyesuaian baru

ini bukan pamer, malah mau curhat. tahun 2012 bakalan jadi tahun penuh dengan penyesuaian. nyesuain sama rumah baru, sekolah baru, temen baru, lingkungan baru, seragam baru, semuanya baru. belum siap sih tapi tetep harus disiapin. kalau soal rumah, ya itu butuh waktu yang lama buat bisa percaya. pindah rumah? gak pernah mikir sampe ke situ. butuh banyak hal yang entah kenapa itu yang aku fikirkan. semuanya. mulai dari penyesuaian., yang beda banget sama yang lama. ditahun 2012 kayaknya gejolak batin, pikiran sama semuanya di uji. gimana nggak UNAS tinggal dikit lagi dan aku belum nyiapin apa apa. belum bisa siap. nggak bakal ngerasa siap. masih banyak yang harus dibuka. banyak banget. orang bilang itu yang namanya hidup. gak bakal asik tanpa masalah. see? sekarang rasanya nggak sia sia hidup ini. ngelihat orang lain tersenyum udah bisa bikin kita seneng. itu sih yang aku pelajarin beberapa bulan terakhir. dan yaaa.... tuhan pasti tau apa yang terbaik

hidup memang harus tetap berjalan

setiap pagi yang menyapa, dan semangat harus tetap ada. awali hari dengan harapan yang tersimpan. cintai hidup dengan hal yang membahagiakan. kadang rasanya ingin terbang begitu saja, hilang tanpa jejak. tak ada seorang pun yang harus menyadarinya. tapi terkadang tetap ingin tinggal. namun semua akhirnya harus berpaling. rasanya harus meluapkan semua tapi semua terendam tanpa kata. hanya diam dan lelah. terdiam dalam sunyi dan kesepian. masih ingin bermimpi dan berlari, namun seakan semua hanya ingin menjatuhkan. masih harus perlu mengerti dan memahami. masih harus terus berlari tanpa harus mencoba berpaling. masih harus terus bermimpi tanpa menyerah. masih harus hidup tanpa penyesalan :)

UNAS 2012

saat mimpi dan cita cita tak dapat dibendung lagi. entah apa yang akan dihadapi pada hari esok. tapi langkah masih jauh untuk sampai. harus punya tekad dan mau usaha. menjunjung tinggi tuhan yang maha Esa. berjuang untuk bumi pertiwi. dan berharap yang terbaik untuk kita jalani. aku menikmati perjalanan ini. menikmati saat semua menjadi menakutkan. aku baru menyadarinya, bahwa ini memang beban yang cukup berat. bukan untukku saja, tapi untuk semuanya. ujian nasional masih menanti. menjadi batu loncatan dalam pendidikan. cukup tau saja, aku tak pernah merasa cukup siap dalam menghadapi sesuatu. masih banyak yang harus dibuka. masih banyak yang harus ada. masih banyak yang harus tertinggal. saat orang orang berpaling. kurasa aku akan tetap pada apa yang aku pegang. aku tak mau membuang waktu yang singkat begitu saja. dan semua akan menjadi sia sia. aku masih percaya pada mimpi yang masih ada. dan aku berusaha untuk memperjuangkannya. tapi semua tuhan yang menentukan. pada saatnya tiba, tuhan akan memberi jalan yang terbaik. kurasa begitu.

DAMN! I LOVE AMBON!

apapun yang udah, lagi, dan akan terjadi sama Ambon kalian semua harus lihat Ambon sebenernya. lihat Ambon dari dekat. lihat keindahan Nusantara yang gak ada duanya. mamaku orang Ambon, secara gak langsung sedikit enggaknya aku juga termasuk keturunan orang Ambon. baru 4 kali ke sana, dan aku udah jatuh-cinta- banget sama kota Ambon sama pulau Maluku. pantainya, oran orangnya, makanannya bikin betah banget buat berlama laam di Ambon. salah satu pulau di Indonesia bagian timur ini emang udah bikin jatuh cinta. apapun. dari segi apapaun Ambon emang keren. terlepas dari konflik yang udah terjadi di Ambon. terakhir kali aku kesana tanpa mama sama papa, ya, sendirian malah bikin aku gak- bisa- lupa  sama Ambon! Nusantara Indah banget bos! Indonesia buakan cuma Jakarta sama Surabaya. demi apapun kalian bakal nyesel kalo belum pernah ke maluku. pantainyaaaa Bebaaaas!!!!!
ini ada bebarapa foto dari ambon. ga semuanya aku yang ambil sih tapi ini emang harus dilihat!

nb: ga semuanya aku yang foto, ada beberapa foto yang diambil dari foto orang lain

DAMN! I LOVE AMBON!

lady antebellum - I was here

You will notice me
I'll be leaving my mark like initials carved
In an old oak tree, you wait and see

Maybe I'll write like Twain wrote
Maybe I'll paint like Van Gogh
Cure the common cold, I don't know
But I'm ready start 'cause I know in my heart

I wanna do something that matters, say something different
Something that sets the whole world on its ear
I wanna do something better with the time I've been given
I wanna try to touch a few hearts in this life
Leave nothing less than something that says ?I was here?

I will prove you wrong
If you think I'm all talk, you're in for a shock
'Cause this dream's too strong and before too long

Maybe I'll compose symphonies
Maybe I'll fight for world peace
'Cause I know it's my destiny
To leave more than a trace of myself in this place!

And I know that I, I will do more than just pass through this life
I'll leave nothing less than something that says ?I was here?
I was here

pancasila rumah kita

pancasila rumah kita
rumah untuk kita semua
nilai dasar indonesia
rumah kita selamanya
untuk semua puji namanya
untuk semua cinta sesama
untuk semua warna menyatu
untuk semua bersambung rasa
untuk semua saling membagi
pada semua insan, sama dapat sama rasa
oh indonesiaku (oh indonesia)

hyper-ballad (mocca)

We live on a mountain
Right at the top
There's a beautiful view
From the top of the mountain
Every morning I walk towards the edge
And throw little things off
Like car-parts, bottles and cutlery
Or whatever I find lying around
It's become a habit
A way to start the day

I go through all this
Before you wake me up
So I can feel happier
To be safe up here with you

It's real early morning
No-one is awake
I'm back at my cliff
Still throwing things off
I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes 'til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like
Slamming against those rocks
When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

Safe up ( here with you ) ..

love make me be....

some teenager ever loved somebody. some of them have happy ending but some of them just be a victim of broken heart. yup. that's the law of nature. how funny if somebody love somebody that love somebody else. ha-ha. some book that I have read  said that love is not just you like somebody and she or he loves you too and you have happy ending with them. love is not about flowers, chocolate, and sweet words. love is about waiting, listening, looking at she or he that you love. I don't know what love is it. so I've never fallen in love. my friends said that love is like oxygen. you can't love with them and love is really beautiful. do you think so??  I just think that love is hurt. some of my friends like somebody and they just be a victim of broken heart when they know if he or she loves somebody else. do you really think that love is beautiful? just like " you give me hope. you make me fly. and you make me be.... " I don't know what people think that he is falling in love with somebody.
hey. I'm a normal girl. I've ever liked someone but I don't think that is love I just like him and never falling in  love with him. ha-ha. and I  ' LOVE ' my family by the way.

mocca- I remember

I remember...The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
I remember...When we caught a shooting star, yes I remember
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

Do you remember..?
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And I remember..When my father thought you were a burglar
I remember.. All the things that we shared, and the promise we made, just you and I
I remember.. All the laughter we shared, all the wishes we made, upon the roof at dawn

I remember.. The way you read your books,
yes I remember
The way you tied your shoes,
yes I remember
The cake you loved the most,
yes I remember
The way you drank you coffee,
I remember
The way you glanced at me, yes I remember
When we caught a shooting star,
yes I remember
When we were dancing in the rain in that december
And the way you smile at me,
yes I remember

 

 

Red white nation, I, and my future

I'm In Indonesia. country with many beautiful places. I really love my country and I always want to make Indonesia better. I don't know how to do it,but I want it. really. I believe that Indonesia has everything. But, I don't  know why many people think that Indonesia is 'poor country'. do you know it? do you think so? guys, do you really think that Indonesia is 'poor country'? you have to see, feel, and listen and you can love Indonesia. I live in Surabaya. crowded city. many people in here, life but not 'life'. they are too busy to see how many places that they can come and feel happy. they just come to the mall and something like that. do you want to spend your life in mall? huh. I really want to make everyone love their country. " red white nation" . I'm a teenager and I love Indonesia. :D

geez! new blog (again)

hi! remember me? I don't think so. this is my  first-second-third ya! this is my third blog. I lost my second blog. I forgot my password. it is stupid. isn't it? well, my name is Lilla. I'm 14 years old, and I'll be 15 on june. I'm in my third year at junior high school. and I'll face national exam on april. It's terrible. I really love music and art. they are my life. I like comics but my mom says that it's not important but I really think that comics can make me smarter. do you think so? I think that every normal child would think so. I love  reading novels too, but I hate reading 'teenlit'. that books make everyone think that love is simple. Just like in dream. huh. by the way, I like mocca, the changcuters, and I like listening to music that can make me feel happy. that's it